This may be the answer to my thoughts. I bottle lots of information to myself and sometimes it hurts! My cousin Liz inspires me in so many ways and when I read her blog I melt. She's a beautiful person, inside and out and has this beautiful family that I think is so great.. so my new blogging experience is all thanks to her.. we'll see how far I get! As of right now, it's a free Psych session for me! :)

Planning a wedding, constructing a house, trying to get to the next step at work and maintaing a happy and healthy relationship! Ugh.. even just thinking about it can make me cry! I wish I knew to believe that it will all work out, like Jaci tells me... but I want a sign! A sign that I don't need to stress out, which I don't.. I worry.

Sometimes I feel it's too much, while at the same time not enough.

One of my favorite involvements right now is Pre-Cana..aka "Love School". In order to get married in the church we have to go every tuesday in the month of march. It's so great! Just listening and observing all the other couples around us gives me hope that Tomás and I are just right! I learn so much about him while we're there... He's got a strong accent, which I secretly am obsessed with, that is such a crowd pleasure. When he speaks during the class, everyone listens as if he's the head of the group! Most of which he says sometimes gets confusing, it still doesn't stop him! He loves attention and blurting out random comments! Sometimes, inappropriate of course! I admire him for his bravery and self-confidence, sometimes its hard for him.

One of my favorite blurts that has come from his mouth during Love School was the simple question we were asked: "How do you show intimacy?" Now, the first thing you think of it something dirty... but in reality it was just a simple way to remind eachother that you love them. And I had nothing, couldn't think of anything at the moment, so when it came to our turn Tomás turns to the group and says: "I wake up 3,4,5am to put gas in her car for her to go to work the next morning!" And OMG did I feel like such a jackass!! Not only do I not really thank him as much as a should but as he saying it I realize how true that is! He does wake up to put gas in my truck! Ugh... wow, he's wonderful! Mr. Wonderful to you! :)

(What I woke up to on my past birthday..!)



I know so many other couples that don't have the guy that I do... he shows me he loves me in different ways than most and it's a great feeling. I'm lucky, truly lucky.